Voice/Vision Holocaust Survivor Oral History Archive

Helen Lang - February 23, 1982


It's your family.

No. But, you know, even before, you know, all these things. So that was the reunion with my family, but I still get dreams that the--I'm running and the Germans are coming after me and they try to catch me. And I wake up that my heart is in my throat and, and, you know, I look around and I um, where am I? Is it true or is it true. I get these horrible dreams once in awhile--not often. I don't even think about it, I don't talk about it.

Is there anytime um, at certain kinds of occasions or even just while you're doing things during the day that something flashes through your memory--you remember something from, from the camps? Does that ever happen?

If they talk about it or I see it on television, you know. It reminds me of, "Oh, I went through this," or "that's what happened to me too," you know.

When you're at a simcha, do you ever think about it?

No, I try not to. I don't talk--I never talk about it, you know. I don't. I get together with people, I don't want to bring up sad things. They're not interested. Maybe they have some other troubles what they go through, you know. Why should I pour out my, my uh, I, I, I don't like to make--feel people that, you know, they should feel sorry for me.

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