Voice/Vision Holocaust Survivor Oral History Archive

Abraham Mondry - June 15, 22, 29 & July 13, 1992


Do you have nightmares about it?

Yeah, I have. That's when I was...that's what I was in psychiatric hospital. I was, for two years...Yeah, about two years ago, it was in Botsford Hospital. Ever meet a doctor named Tommy Hayden, a psychiatrist? He runs the psychiatrists at Botsford Hospital.


Yeah, I used to get...I used to get up in the night, you know. I'd put on the TV. I see all ??? was going around, you know. I was thinking they're going to kill me, you know.

From the television?

Yes. My imagination, you know, but, but didn't go out from my mind. I couldn't sleep, you know. It's bad...I used to run and grab a knife from the kitchen, you know. I put a knife on the chair. I was going around for...for six months. I was twice.

What did you dream about?

Oh, what's going around, the killing, in Auschwitz, you know. The whole picture was of me right in front.

Any specific moments?

Yes, where...where ???...where they used to take to selection, you know, the people, you know, Anglo, like this.

This finger, point...

Two fingers, one here, one there.


This one here, here, here to die, here still to live yet. Yeah, I wanted to kill myself one time. I wanted to kill myself a few times. That's why I don't care. I don't care if I live or I drop dead tomorrow morning. I don't care if I die tomorrow, the way I am. I...I...I was live...I'm living on extension anyway, what's the difference?

Because of the war, you mean?

No. I'm living on extension on account of the stroke.

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