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Emerich Grinbaum - January 8, 2001

Did, did it ever make any sense to you why they were doingthis?

No, no sense, you know. That was very much frustrating and weuh, [pause] we were-you, you know what, during the year in the camp, we didn'thave time to think about it. I mean-we didn't desire, as I said-told you.We never did dis...discuss much about that. We were everyday pragmatic tohave some piece of bread and, and have a better job or something like that.After that, people tried- although they tried to forget, but for several yearsevery conversation, those survivors, every conversation they started, anyconversation ended up with the discussion about the camp and, and Auschwitz.Every-that's, that's for sure. And especially those who, who, who uh, youknow, we children somehow we managed to, to, to get through without majortrouble. For instance, my step-mother-my father married another. Matter afact, a relative, a remote relative of, of us, she married another lady. Shelost her husband and one child, my age child. And you know, for years-no,she liked to us, but she wa...she watched us and she always reminded her,her, her son and she-there was, there was no day that she wasn't crying. Andthat was the damage. So there was not a philosophical whether God existed,just you know, the-about the loss. That happened practically-but discussionalways from anything you know, always came back to the camp, camp. That cameback. Although we-although people tried to, to, to organize a wha...a newlife. People came back young-eighteen, twenty, they married young becausethey had nobody. I remember the, the first year there was oh [laughs] everybodymarried somebody you know, because that was the way, the way they wanted,you know. And they you know, somebody found something uh, furniture or some,you know. But, at, at that first year there, there was, the Russian let usuh, they so-called uh, half-capitalist, they could open a store or something.So the Jews managed to-those who stayed there. But majority who came backfrom the camp and they saw what happening, the borders to Hungary and to Czechoslovakiawere open. The majority-these were the smart people-they left. Those who stayed,including my father, he didn't want to leave. We were begging him, begginghim. It still was open, un...until September '45, the, the, the borders wereopen.